I miss you more!

I am missing you right now.

I miss the way you sleep in while I am getting up for work... the way you snuggle into the covers and half-heartedly shift over to my side of the bed.

I miss the way that Annie sleeps on my feet and I have to try not to adjust her too much so she stays comfortable.

I miss the way you whisper to me "don't go" as I am getting out of bed in the morning. Sometimes I'm not sure you even know you say it... but you do.

I miss trying to brush my teeth quietly and having to tip-toe around the bedroom before I leave for the day... and how I usually make some loud noise anyways while trying to be quiet... and how you are so good-hearted about it even though I know it makes it hard to go back to sleep.

I miss letting Annie out in the morning and watching her try to walk on the brick border of your flower garden all the while keeping herself from getting wet... weirdo.

I miss your attempts at gardening... we both know that I end up having to water all the plants 

I miss it when I call you and it seems like it brightens your day just to hear my voice... I would know, though, because it does the same for me.

I miss missing you while at work... wondering what your up to and what new idea you've been concocting for our house.

I miss coming home and see Annie bounding toward the front door, so excited she just can't contain herself.

I miss getting the house ready for you to come home to; making it feel welcome and warm and bright... and safe.

I miss seeing the exact reaction in Annie as she hears the garage door opening, knowing its you driving in... and even when she doesn't hear it, as soon as she sees you, she is overflowing with joy... yes, overflowing.

I miss meeting you at the door and trying to get between you and our pup so I can kiss you and welcome you back home... our home.

I miss your reluctance to let me make steak, and how when I ask and you say no, I really am sad but play it off so it doesn't make you feel like you have to give in. You are just looking out for me and our food budget after all....

I miss how, on the RARE occasions that you do let me make steak, you don't mind how excited I get and how you put up with the wait as I make sure everything is Just Right. ooooh, and I also miss the steak rub and sauce we found together and how we indulged just a little after tasting it while shopping.... man was that good!

I miss how when you say no to steak, you have no alternative... but we try our hardest together to concoct dinner and keep it mildly healthy... you always do look out for my health.

I miss how you feign forgetting something out in the kitchen or living room after we've decided to retire for the evening... just so I will go out to look for it and turn off all the lights in the process... but I'm not mad, I just do it anyways so it makes you feel safe.

I miss laying in bed at night with you while we read and how before I know it, I look over and see that you've fallen asleep... with the light on... again.  So I get up and move around the bed to turn off the light... only when I come back to my side, I notice that Annie has shifted to my warmed up area of the bed and refuses to leave.... yup, I still miss Annie.

I miss being around to pet Annie too... although, she use to love getting all the attention from you until I was able to multitask and pet her while doing almost anything else... that kind of back-fired a bit huh?

I miss how clean you like to keep things and how you put up with me and my boy-filthy ways. I can't wait to come home and make it feel normal again. :-)

I miss how you let the trash build up and let me 'realize' it needs to be taken out... but I know it can get heavy and dirty... and, well, that's my realm. ;-)

I miss you pointing out all the little things I do wrong while driving (namely speed) but always let me drive anyways... as if you think you are giving me more practice to make perfect... I just like going fast.

I miss you and your own half-hearted attempt at laundry. We both don't mind washing, and we both hate folding... and putting them away... so the clean laundry just keeps piling up until we need to sift through the baskets of clean clothes just to find something to wear.

I miss wine... and your willingness to go along with my new adventures.

Is it evident that I miss you too? Because I do. I can't wait to hear your voice next. I love you. Me.